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I Have No Idea

I have been sitting here with my iPad on my lap for a while now, wanting to write a blog entry but I have no idea what to blog about. I have been tired and busy.

I went to the beach two weeks ago but nothing to blog about this time. Just had a relaxing little quick trip to get the camper Winterized. Temperatures were in the 80’s so we stayed on the beach most of the time.  It was Halloween so we watched the cute trick or treaters and contests. We also went to a halloween party someone was having. We felt out of place but stayed a little while not to be rude. It was fun watching people and seeing all the different costumes. We also made a couple new friends.

Work has been busy and I come home tired every day. The nature of my job can be rewarding but also stressful and heartbreaking. At least one (sometimes two) nights a week I will fall asleep and sleep for 12 hours. 

I have a request to make some crocheted things by May for church. According to my figurations, I have to work on them 10 hours a month to get them completed. 

I also plan to do another 5K on Thanksgiving morning and I’m trying to find the time and energy to practice and get my strength and balance ready. My daughter will be doing this with me. It will be my 5th time running a 5K. I was a few pounds smaller all the other times and not in nearly as much pain, But I can do this. 

Other things I need to do this month are come up with a dish to make for our work Thanksgiving party, Make a dish or two for family Thanksgiving, get some Christmas shopping done, decorate for Christmas, and find the bottom of my laundry basket. 

Hmmm, well looky there, I just made a blog post with no idea. 

Feel free to comment with any idea you would like for me to blog about. This could be fun. If your reading my blog from email, just click on my blog title and it will take you to my actual blog page and you can comment from there. 

Jesus Take the Wheel

 Every night I pray to God to keep my daughter safe. I pray she will stay on the right path of life, find good friends, stay healthy and more. But I pray pray pray for her safety while she is out driving around. 

I am a worrying mom of an adult daughter. Does the worry ever end? 

Then we get a call from her on a quiet Saturday afternoon. She was in an accident. She rear ended the car in front of her and totaled her car. She let us know AFTER it was over and she was back at her apartment. I lost sleep that night. So many “what ifs” flying through my mind. “But I pray for her safety!” Why did God not listen? But then I had to stop and think…”she “IS” safe. She did not get hurt. She is just being grounded right now. She is walking distance from restaurants and grocery stores and she works from home so she will be fine for a while. I have faith there is a blessing in the mess. 

She just added to the fiasco. My nephew was in an accident 5 days ago where he was rear ended and hit another car causing a chain reaction. He was taken to the hospital for observation and released. My brother went to pick him up and take him home to his wife and kids. Out of no where, a deer jumps in front of his truck and damages the front end. Everyone is ok. 

Wait, theres more.

Today my younger nephew backed into his brothers car.

Between worrying about my daughter, so much going on, my naggy supervisor and the nature of my job. I finally broke down in tears on the way home. 

It’s been a day. But tomorrow will be better. I hope.

Dizzy By Sheets

Ok this post is just a funny little story I wanted to share.

Our Bed Bath and Beyond store went bankrupt and had a big closing clearance sale. Three fourths of the store was empty but we went ahead and looked around at what was left. Everything was marked down 90% off. We ended up getting a fitted sheet to match some linens we had. 

As we were looking around, my husb…….Ok wait, first let me just tell you that as a minimalist, I like simple things. That goes for simple colors. My bedding is always white or at most, a light print or color. Loud prints and colors just sorta drive me crazy. But anyway, as we were looking around, my husband found a set of sheets to fit our double bed. Yes, we have a double bed. Not a queen, not a King. Just a double and it works fine for us. 
This sheet set was on sale for $7.00. They were blue and white checked. He liked them so I said “Ok, if you like them, I’ll try them”. 

After a couple of days I decided to wash the new sheets and put them on the bed. I tried. I really did. I put on the bottom sheet and that’s as far as I could get. My head started spinning but this time I can’t blame it one my Meniere's disease. 

I got myself balanced back out and walked into the kitchen where my husband was. 

I propped my arms on the counter and looked up at him. He looked a little concerned and asked me what was wrong.
“I can’t do it”. 
“Do what?” He asked.
“I can’t put the sheets on the bed. I just can’t”. He said, “Do you want me to help you?”. 
“I guess. I don’t know. They give me vertigo”. He laughed and said “Come on, I’ll help you, I don’t want you to over do it”. 
He walked into the bedroom and was like “Woooah!” 
We stood there and laughed then we both laid down on our tummies facing each other. After a good laugh, he said, “take them off. There is no way we can wake up in the morning on these sheets”.

The sheets……

NEVERMIND- GOOGLE HAS LOST MY PHOTO. This has happened on several of my post lately. I Cant”t seem to find a reason or a backup.

Do you agree? Who in their right mind could sleep on these sheets? 

Needless to say, my bedding is white again. Let’s just keep it that way. 

Random Facts About Me, What about you?

When I read my friend Diana’s latest blog post, I had to join in on the fun. This is a fun interactive post where you can learn about each other. Have fun reading about me and if you have a blog I hope you join in. Instructions how to play along will be at the end of the post. 
Here goes…..

1.  Where do you like to vacation?
We like to vacation in our camper in North Myrtle Beach, SC.

2.  Do you have pets?
No. I love animals but do not want the responsibility. If I had a pet, I would get a hedgehog. 

3.  What is your favorite color?
I have never had a favorite color. I like neutral earth tone colors.

4.  How many are in your family?
Just three in my household. I also have my mom and dad, 2 brothers, and a sister.

5.  What is your least favorite thing to do?
Wash silverware. 

6.  What is your most favorite thing to do?
Sit on the beach in the morning with a cup of coffee.

7.  If money were no object what would you like to do when you retire?
Have a small RV and go places. I would also settle for a house on the beach. 

8.  What is your favorite season?

9.   What book are you currently reading?
I am not currently reading any books. I wish I liked to read but it’s just not my thing,

10. What time do you go to bed, get up in the morning?
I go to bed each night around 11 and my Eco dot Alexa wakes me up every morning at 6.

11. How long have you been blogging?
I started my blog in 2011 but did not really get into it until 2015.
That’s 11 years!!! Wow. 

11 Random things about me. 
1.   I’m left handed.
2.   I can not swim. ( but I can float).
3.   I still have my tonsils though the doctor can’t find them.
4.   I have 3 tattoos.
5.   I sneeze when I eat peppermint.
6.   I’m a Christian.
7.   I can drive a stick shift car.
8.   I’m a minimalist.
9.   I have been in Nutrisystem ads as a success story.
10.  I am afraid of snakes and spiders.
11.  I am a lucid dreamer. the questions below and paste to a new blog post. Then tell us 11 random things about yourself. 
When your finished, head over to TheNanaDiana and share the link to your blog post in her comments and she will share your blog on her page. 
Have fun!

1.  Where do you like to vacation?
2.  Do you have pets?
3.  What is your favorite color?
4.  How many are in your family?
5.  What is your least favorite thing to do?
6.  What is your most favorite thing to do?
7.  If money were no object what would you like to do when you retire?
8.   What is your favorite season?
9.   What book are you currently reading?
10. What time do you go to bed, get up in the morning?
11. How long have you been blogging?

Tuesday 4- Moving

Welcome to Tuesday 4. 
A fun four question post continued in the memory of Toni Taddeo, It’s original author. 
Let’s have some fun. 

Todays Subject: Moving

1. How far away are you from where you grew up?
I live about 10 miles from where I grew up. My parents still live in the home place. I also live in the same district I lived in until I was seven. 

2. Families sometimes move all over the country.Do you feel that a family should try to stay close together?
I think people should live where they can be happy. Some people prefer living close to family but some enjoy living afar so they can have a place to come home too and visit. For me, I do not mind moving away if I get the chance but still want to be within a comfortable drive from my daughter and momma and daddy.

3. How many times have you moved in your life and would you like to share when and where you moved?
I have been married twice so I have moved a few times. But the total moves I have made in my life is seven times. Three before I was married and four after. If I don't count the temporary places I’ve lived, It would only be 4.

4. What brought you to where you are living now and are you happy there?
When we got married we bought and lived in my husbands late grandparents home. The property was sold to a video store and we moved to our current home which is bigger and better. We used to be happy here but now not so much. A lot has changed in our neighborhood in the past 18 years. We also would like to downsize one day and maybe even move to the beach. 

Thanks to Anne for organizing the Tuesday 4 questions.

Captcha- Is it just me?

This is a blogger to blogger post.

I read through my favorite blogs each day and then branch out and read more blogs. I like to comment on the ones I read but I have been slack at doing that lately because every time I comment I have to prove I am not a robot before it will accept it. I hate doing this. I aggravates me.
This used to happen only a few times, and that was ok, but now it’s every single time. I have to click on all the bicycle pictures or frirehydrates, busses or bridges. I spend more time doing this than actually posting a comment. It is annoying. 

So my question is, does everyone have this problem or is it just me? Does anyone know how I can avoid this?
Personally on my blog, I do have the “Captcha” turned on but only for comments on post that are over 90 days old. Thats usually the ones that the spammers seem to hit. 

Do you have to prove your not a robot when you comment on my page? 
Maybe it a new Google or blogger thing. Maybe its just my settings. 

I’d love your input on this. 

Meal Time Names

Sometimes we will get into this little disagreement on what we call our meal times. 

Some people call lunch, “dinner”.
My husband calls supper “dinner”. 
But I think he’s wrong and we will go round and round about it. 
Seriously yall, if this is all we have to argue about then I think we will be ok.

I call the meals of the day as “breakfast, lunch and supper“.
Dinner to me is more formal and has a title in front of it as in “Sunday dinner, Thanksgiving dinner or Family Dinner“ and they can be held at any time of the day. 

I would like to know what everyone else calls their meal times. 

New Normal?

“Welcome to the new normal” or “Be prepared for the new normal”.
I am hearing that a lot lately and I’m not on board. 
Maybe I don’t want a “new normal.”
When I hear that phrase, it makes me think people are accepting the way things are right now and willing to just live with it. 
I don’t think we should give up so easy.
Not that I liked the “old normal”, I mean, that didn’t really work for me either. 
Why can’t we strive to make a “better normal?” 
Who wants to wear an unnecessary mask everywhere they go? (Don’t get me started on that!) 
Who wants to have to worry about where their next dollar is coming from?
We need a better normal or just go back to how things were. I don’t know.
But I refuse to make this mess we are going through right now a “new normal”.

It sucks.

I see you- An Open Letter To Grocery Workers

Dear grocery workers,

I see you. You did not have that friendly smile on your face today as you were ringing up my groceries. It’s ok. I can only imagine your life right now. Though I fuss and cuss that I do not have a job to go to, I would not want to be in your shoes right now. 

You are essential. However, I do not see your titles in the headlines of the observer or news. I do not see businesses offering you free shoes to wear or free meals. Instead, I see customers arguing with you for not having an item in stock. I also notice the only thing protecting you from customers is a piece of plexiglass the size of a computer screen. 

I see you working endless hours filling orders for grocery deliveries and curb side pickup because others are afraid to risk their health while you are sacrificing yours.

Your hair is a mess and you simply did not feel like applying make up or shaving today. I get it. You are working overtime so everyone can go home to their families and pack their cupboards. You are tired, yet you are not complaining or asking for handouts.

You didn’t ask for this. You did not get up one day and say “I want to be a grocery store clerk”. No, you took a job because you needed an income. Your pay is on the lower end of the scale and you probably live paycheck to pay check. You had no idea you would one day be on the front lines of a pandemic war with a virus claimed to be so contagious that they shut down Churches, schools, beaches, and dental offices.
You come face to face with every person in the town not knowing if they are carrying a virus or a cold. 

I pray for you and all other essential workers every day. You sacrifice your health so others can stay safe. You are appreciated.
Thanks for all you do.
We see you.

First Week

Well I made it through my first week of being unemployed (post). I got up each morning as usual. My body is so used to getting up at 7am that I do not need an alarm clock. I decided not to try to sleep in. To me, sleeping is a waste of day. I like to get the day started early.

It was an emotional week for me as I would go back and forth from feeling free to feeling helpless. I didn’t know what to do with myself. One thing I decided was to stay busy. I started working on some things around the house that normally I would not have time to do. 

At the beginning of each day I would make a “to do” list.
The first day, it did not work too well as I only completed 2 out of 5 things on my list. I did better as the week went on.

Here are a few things I did and learned throughout the week. 

I found the bottom of my laundry basket.
I cleaned my craft closet. ( yes, I have a craft closet, not a craft room)
I cleaned out my clothes closet and took 2 bags of clothes and shoes to the Good Will.
I tried really hard not to eat everything in the house. 
Dishes really do not do themselves. (My husband does them before I can get to it).
I was able to enjoy some girl talk with neighbors. (Do they not do Tupperware parties anymore?)
I wore yoga pants and tshirts all day.
I realized I didn’t need a bra after all.
My face detoxed by not wearing makeup all week.

Something else I did was visited the local college to check on taking some classes. WOW there is no way I can afford college. I do not qualify for any assistance because they go by your last years income. And if I could afford to go, how could I work and go to school at the same time? 

SO, I decided to register for some CNA classes that will start in January. I have always wanted to be a nurse. They are quick and affordable. I could be done with both CNA1 and CNA2 in 36 weeks. 
BUT....I changed my mind the next day. This is a low paying job for the work that it would involve. Not physically, but mentally. I heard too many stories on how CNAs are treated and the crazy hours they have to work. It did not take much for me to decide against it. However, I have thought about renewing my phlebotomy license. 

I’m back to square one but I did apply to 27 jobs online. Maybe I should take some Spanish classes because it seems like everyone hiring wants someone that is bilingual. 
This week we will head to the beach for a while so I can do some thinking. I need to sit back and relax for a week and get my thoughts together. They have just been all over the place. I have moments I feel like I’m gonna explode. 

It will be nice to actually enjoy the beach without worrying about catching up a work load when I get back. 
I’m pretty excited about that. 

What Next?

Friday afternoon on my drive home from work, I was in a different world. The road felt long and I didn’t even notice others passing me by. I wonder if I even stopped at the stop lights or just drove straight through them. I’m not even sure my radio was playing.

I finally made it home and pulled into the carport. My husband was standing at the door waiting on me like he does every day. I walked in and lost it. He wrapped his arms around me and held me. He knew what had just happened. After a moment I fixed my makeup before heading out for a date night birthday dinner. 

After 26 years, my job came to an end. My boss (who is retired and I haven't seen in years) came in and told me he had to let me go because he had sold half the franchise and could not afford to pay me anymore.
I held strong as I could as he explained his reason and fed me a lot of bull snot. He said I would be getting only a couple weeks severance pay and even told me he was gonna bring in another girl to take my place for half the pay. That hit a nerve. It was an insult to me as I was a dedicated employee. I needed to work and was grateful to have a job. I could barely hold it. I have never laid out sick, I Even worked on family funeral days and logged in and worked while on my vacations. Simply because I cared about my job. I worked hard but I was also comfortable, and made a healthy paycheck.

I did all the office, personnel and administrative work. The owner knows how to do some of the work I did and I assume he will be training a new person soon. I’m sure they can do without me but he will now see just how much I really did once it’s not getting done. 

Despite the happy post I made over the weekend I have been on one big emotional roller coaster. I do not know what to do with myself as I had put everything into my job for 26 years. That’s almost half of my life. It’s scary. I feel like all my dreams in life will only be dreams. But then again, my dreams didn’t include working at that place all my life. So maybe this is the start of something good. I will just have to have faith. It feels weird not getting ready for work in the mornings. 

What Next?
Honestly, I have no idea. 
I have already put in a few applications online. I have been turned down by some and hope to hear back from the others. I also will be heading up to the community college this week to get some info on taking some classes and if I can even afford it.

On a good note, nothing right now is holding be back from another beach trip, and when I go, I will not have to worry about catching up on my work load.

Sorry for the depressing post. I usually refrain from posting sad or bad news but it felt good to let it out here on the blog. I will be fine. And if you pray, say a prayer for me.


It is known that when a man travels he remembers roads. When a woman travels, she remembers landmarks. Ask a man for directions and he will say, “Turn on hwy 74 then take a right on 485”. A woman will say, drive about 3 miles, go under an old brick bridge then turn right at the okie dokie hotel”.
This is true for me.
I could get back home from anywhere by just remembering things I seen along the way. 
Every time we go to the beach there are always little reminders that tell me where I am and where we will be turning next. 
Here are just a few things I notice we pass that have not changed in years. Excuse the photo quality as I took them through the car window going down the road.

The oldest landmark we pass is this unfinished boat.

I call it the SS Minnow. You know, Gilligans Island boat. Looks just like it to me. This boat has actually been sitting here since I was young. I have even emailed the company that sits behind it, trying to find out information on this boat. I think it has a story and I’d love to find it out. I never get a response. 

When we pass cotton plants, corn fields and red barns, I know what city we are going through.

Here is an old SunFlower moving tailer. It has sat in a field beside the railroad track for years. The field will be tilled and crop will be planted. They  just work around the trailer

 I think it would make a great photo prop. My guess would be this tailer is from the 70s.

I know we are not far from our desitination when we pass this old junk pile with a couple of silos sitting beside it. I didnt catch a photo of the silos but I did get a shot of the sign that sits out front. Sometimes it will say “free puppies” on one side, but the other side always says, “dressed hogs”. 

Everytime we pass this, Nick will snicker. Then we both start laughing. Why? Well, because after passing it one day, I asked Nick what dressed hogs were. Without flinching, he responded “ It’s pigs running around in little tuxedos’. After a long pause of thought, I laughed. But I did have to think about it a minute. So, yea, we still giggle everytime we pass the “dressed hog” sign. 

We had a great weekend at the beach. I can’t wait til we go again in May. We will be taking our daughter with us. We always have fun on the beach and I’m looking forward to it as I count down the days. 

How Do You Handle The Negative?

We all know people that are always negative. Those that kill your mood with negative and pessimism.

I turn on the Internet and TV and all I hear is negative news, complaining and conflict! I decide to Turn on music instead. I log onto my social media and all I see are negative post and stories. I will hide these people from my view. But then I think being positive is not ignoring the negative, but instead, overcoming it. But how?

What about family members or friends that can never find anything positive to say? The ones you love and want to see do better, but unwilling to better themselves and continue complaining about it. No matter what you say, they come back with a negative remark. They will always find bad in everything good. They hate life and dwell on bad news.

I know a person that will complain about their weight but instead of listening to my advice, they return a photo of themselves eating a dozen donuts or a pint of ice cream and think its funny. people will do this to discourage you from reaching your own goals by trying to prove it's not possible.

What about that person that hates the way they look? No matter how you convenience them they are beautiful, they get mad at you and call you a lair. They simply will not accept a compliment. So you snap back and tell them before anyone else can like them, they have to like themselves. This is true fact by the way. I get tired of wasting my time trying to change someone that is not willing to change themselves.

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I am proud of myself for losing 50 lbs. But it does not always come with sparkles and rainbows. I more often walk into a room and hear people say, "you make me sick" or "it must be nice to be able to lose weight", than hear anyone congratulate me. I have to remember to smile and hold my chin up. It took a lot of work to get where I am. I refuse to let them bring me down to their level of unhappiness.

Negative people will suck the optimism right out of you. They wonder why they do not have friends and its because the heave a reputation of always being negative. No one wants to be around that.

I have decided to limit my exposure to these kind of people.

How do you handle negative news or negative people?

I Think I'm weird

As I get older, the more the thought of germs bother me. After doing a lot of shopping and food swapping the past couple days It's made me more concerned that I may have a problem. Some may think I'm a little weird and they may be right but I think we all have some weird ways about us that others can't seem to understand.

I think I may be a germaphobic.

Here are a few examples:

  • I do not like to sit on fabric chairs in a waiting area or movie theater. 
  • We want even talk about hotel beds.
  • In a restaurant, I will not touch the edge of the table or chairs where my fingers may touch underneath. 
  • Speaking of restaurants, I cringe when they wipe the seats and table with the same cloth.
  • I will not eat any foods at a pot luck or covered dish dinner unless I know who's kitchen it came from. 
  • I do not want to eat food from someone with cats. yea, I have had cats and I know how they shed and jump on counters. I know I'd wipe it clean but I don't know about others.
  • If I see you messing with your hair in the kitchen, I will loose my appetite.
  • I keep hand sanitizer with me all the time in case someone shakes my hand. I'd rather be hugged.
  • I cringe when someone lets their dog kiss their face. Dogs lick themselves. eeeesh!
  • I use a shower house when I go camping, but freak out if I touch the wall! and Flip flops will be worn at all times in there. 
  • I will not eat foods that look like they were handled a lot in preparation, such as decorative cookies or desserts with lots of creativeness put in them. 
  • I will not try on a hat in a store.
  • I can't wait to get home and wash my feet after trying on shoes and I will no try shoes on barefooted. 
  • Don't ask me if you can try my shoes on. It bothers me.
  • I will eat at a buffet but I constantly think about who's touching what. 
  • I have to wash my hands after I make my plate because of the germs on all those spoon handles everyone shares. 
  • I will pull and push public doors open with my elbows or sleeves if at all possible. 
  • I always wash my grocery buggy down with wipes then head to the produce for a plastic bag to cover the buggy handle. 
  • and if you as much as hiccup around me during flu season, I might mace you with Lysol.

Well? Am I normal? or am I weird? I do not go into panics and I hid my concerns when I am out with friends and family but the concern is still there. It may not be really a Phobia. It's just a figure of speech. 

The only time I do not feel the phobia is around my husband or daughter. I have a strong stomach as a caring mother and wife and can handle any of their sicknesses accidents or boo boos like a boss!

Blog Planner

I have been going around and around in my mind about using a blog planner or any planner of that matter. I actually bought a little simple planner to play around with until the end of the year. But dog gone it, my life is just not that busy.

I have no idea what to keep up with. I am not so busy that I can't just sit down after work and come up with something to blog about.


I want to make my blog better ( I say this every year). or better organized. I want to spend more time on it and try and bring in more traffic. I want my blog to grow.

I would consider my blog a "lifestyle" blog I think. I blog about things I do, see, or experience. I try my best to leave politics or news out of it. Because I'm not that educated on either one. I often do reviews and sometimes those have deadlines so It would be nice to keep up with them in a planner. Maybe plan out blog post for the future? Right now my post are usually spur of the moment. I have a tag called "random". seriously.

When I go online to read about blog planning. I only find sites that lead me to professional bloggers that do a lot of marketing, and selling. People that are focused on one topic. They speak too big in vocabulary for me to even understand what they are talking about. I mean, heck, I just learned recently what "monetizing" is. 

I do get ideas of a post sometimes and I will either snap a reminder photo or jot it down in my "notes" app on my phone. Maybe that's enough for me or maybe its not. I like being organized and love to be creative. But I want my planner to be more than a pretty book.

So I'm asking my readers for advice.

Do you use a blog planner? What about a daily planner? Do you carry a little journal around with you all day or do you use a special app on your device? I am curious. I would love to have new ideas ready for the new year that will soon be here.

For my blog friends that “Monetize” I’d also love to know what you use for that. 
I use Adsense but for some reason, The ads have stopped showeing up on my page as of November 1st. I’ve checked all my settings and everything is active with no violations. Been to help and support but with no advice. I’m ready to find other options. 


  • My Fitbit alarm gently vibrated on my wrist to effortlessly wake me up. 
  • It was 7:00 am. 
  • I sat up in bed, grumpily punched my pillow and walked out of the room then gently shut the door not to wake up my husband and started my daily routine. 
  • As I walked into the bathroom my shoulder hit the side of the door and I kicked a towel in the floor from last nights shower. 
  • Looking in the mirror I did not like the face looking back at me. 
  • "gross!" I said as I turned off the light and walked into the kitchen to eat breakfast. 
  • I forgot to add coffee grounds to the coffee maker so I remade a pot. 
  • I ripped the bag of bread because I found the simple bread tie annoying to get off. 
  • "Stupid bread bags" I mumbled. 
  • I made an egg while my toast was browning in the toaster then sat down to eat. 
  • I looked through my emails, checked my Facebook, Twitter and Instagram then headed over to my blog to read everyone's post.
  • The husband is now up and sits down to eat a bowl of oatmeal and throws me a kiss across the table.
  • I was not in the mood so I did a fast pucker back with a sideways smile. 
  • He knew to leave me alone. 
  • After about 10 minutes, time seemed to sneak up on me so slammed my iPad shut. 
  • Because I guess somehow it was the iPads fault that I didn't have time to finish.
  • I had to get ready for work but I could not find anything to wear. 
  • "Ugly is all I see" I shouted. "I do not look good in any of this stuff' anymore".
  • I headed to the vanity. 
  • "Uuuughhh, I'm so ugly!" I said to myself. 
  • Then my eyes filled with tears.
  • The husband walked in and tried to make me feel better. 
  • But I knew this was just something husbands do. It didn't help matters.
  • "I can't get my hair to look right, my face is saggy and wrinkles are everywhere!"
  • "I look old and worn".
  • "I have bad teeth"
  • "I'm useless and will never amount to anything" 
  • "I hate my job"
  • "and I'm always broke".
  • Nick just listened until I was finished. Then he again tried to make me feel better.
  • It was 8:30am
  • I grabbed my work bag and headed to work hoping I do not get into any road rage.
  • I was on the brink.

Why all this?
I was in a FUNK!
This will happen to me a couple times a year and it feels awful.

Do you ever just wake up thinking the whole world is against you?
You feel like whatever you do, someone else has just done it better?
You feel like everyone in the world is having fun and enjoying life except you?
You feel ugly and useless.
Everything seems irritate you.
It's like a depression cloud that will float over you and you wait for it to pass.
And usually by the end of the day, it will.

How do you fix this? 
I'm not sure about you but I have to find an outlet.
Pray first.
I have to stay off social media a while. The news will keep me depressed.
I have to keep thinking positive.
I have to keep telling myself  "this not who I am and it will pass".
Exercise works too.
Having a friend you can talk too and vent too is a big plus. I do not have a friend like this but I have my husband and he is my best friend. We talk, we walk, and we grumble about life together and by the end of the day I'm in a better mood.

Do you ever get in Funk?

My New iPhone Gadget

I’ll admit. I take lots of selfies. No one else can take a selfie of me, like me. Is that weird? Yes I think it's very weird that people snap pictures of themselves. I can’t believe that I actually will do this.
I will even take a selfie in front of people! I remember the days where I would hide from any camera much less take a photo of myself! I will take a dozen before I decide one looks ok enough to make a profile photo for social media. Until recently, I hid from cameras. I'm learning to have a better self esteem and not be so critical on how I look.

My daughter was always my photographer but now she no longer lives in the house. Now I have no one to take any pictures of me. My husband is not qualified.
You might wonder why this is important to me. Well I promise I do not think I look good on camera nor do I think I half way qualify as a model. 
You see, I get asked sometimes to take promotional photos of myself. Once I had to do a video for social media. For the video, I literally tied my phone to a pole with a hair band. It was awkward and the video was not so good.

Recently, I have been asked to do more social media promoting so I figured I may need more to work with. I went online and started looking around for ideas. 
I came across this flexible “Octopus Tri-Pod” for my iPhone.
I even have a cool little blue tooth remote to snap the photos with. How cool is that?

This cute little tripod only cost me four bucks and I’m already loving it and haven't even used it yet. It can bend and rotate in many different angles and I can use it anywhere.
I do own a digital camera, but my iPhone seems to take better pictures than my little Cannon.

Being only 6 inches tall, It's portable, so can throw my personal photographer in my tote and take it with me on the road if I need too. I'm actually thinking of making a few fashion post soon. I just have to get the courage up first.

This little doohickey will be perfect for those fashion bloggers or those who just want to take a fun selfie or still video. 

(I’m laughing now because spell check just corrected my spelling of "doohickey". It must be from the South too. Haha.)

Octopus tripod- EBAY
Wireless blue tooth camera remote-EBAY

Broken Wings

It’s that time of year where the butterflies are nearly everywhere you go. They are very plentiful around here. You can see all sizes and colors. They are absolutely beautiful. I like to watch them feed off my butterfly bush that was given to me years ago by my neighbor Mr. H. 

On the way home from shopping on Saturday, a beautiful Canadian Tiger Swallowtail flew into our path and we unavoidably hit it with the grill of the car. I was not aware of this. When we parked the car in the carport the butterfly fell to the ground and wobbled into the grass as his wings would sway back and forth hitting the pavement from side to side. I immediately called for Nick to come see the hurt butterfly. That’s when he admitted hitting it but did not want to tell me. He did not think the butterfly had stuck to the grill and survived the ride home. 

I did not want to touch him causing him to loose anymore flying dust but I did reach down with some water on my finger. He grabbed hold around my finger for a sip but never gained trust. When I would try to lift my hand up to get a closer look, he bounced off. It never would walk onto my hand to be carried to safety. 
The butterfly would rather sit on my shoe. As you can see, he had a broken right wing and a torn edge. 

So with it sitting on my shoe, I carefully walked out to my butterfly bush and lifted him up to a floral, sweet smelling stem to rest on. I do not know if he eventually gained flight or fell to the ground and wobbled away.

I can’t help but wonder if butterfly wings heal themselves. If not, I guess this guy is a goner . 


It’s almost that time of year again. A couple people in the family have birthdays coming up. I will ask them what they want for their birthday and the response is always the same.
“Oh NOTHING”. “There is NOTHING I really want” or “I need NOTHING’. 

They know they will get something. I’m just wired that way. I love to give. So why can’t they just give me an idea?  If I think of something myself, It is usually the wrong thing, they do not need it or it doesn’t fit. I wish for once they would give me a small hint of some things they would like to have. 
Feelings will be hurt if I literally do not get a gift. My own heart would even be broken. 

Neither one has a hobby or collects anything (not that I can afford to supply for anyways).
Honestly, they really do have enough and really dont want anything. But still........

I know they mean well and really do not want anyone spending money on unnecessary things. I get it. But surely there is something. But NOTHING. 

My sister feels the same way.
She sent me these photos of the perfect gift for those that want NOTHING.

We both had a good giggle over this. 

Wait, I think she actually bought this since the photo was taken in her car. 
Now I wonder if she really is going to give someone NOTHING. 

My First 5K Run

Saturday I got up bright and early. Earlier than I would on any work day. The sky was dark and the rain was falling. This would be the day I do my first 5K run that I didn’t prepare for.

My fitbit alarm sent me a gentle vibration on my wrist at 5:45am. I was up like Christmas morning. I put on my running clothes and shoes and headed to the kitchen for a banana and peanut butter. I skipped the coffee. Well, I did have a sip but not my normal cup. I didn’t want to have to fight a full bladder.

Nick surprised me by getting up too. “Well, I am going to take you. You didnt think I was gonna let you run 3 miles without being there incase something happend, did you?”  I was so happy and felt at ease because frankly, I wasnt sure of myself either. I had come close to chickening out several times. 

Once we were there, the rain was at a mist. I met up with my friend and we headed to the starting line. We told each other not to wait on each other and do the race at our own pace. “On your mark-Get set-Go! And we were off. 

Mile one- I think I started to fast and I'm already out of breath. There are still many runners around me. I just got passed by a mom pushing a baby stroller. I walked a little to catch my breath before we started down a hill into town. I got enough air to start running again. My friend has already run ahead of me so I stuck in my second earphone so I could zone out with my music playlist.

Mile two- The runners are thinning out more as they are all probably at the finish line already way ahead of me. I continue to walk some and run some. 
I have to catch up to that really old man ahead of me. Im pretty sure he’s in his 90’s. I need to ask him what kind of vitamins he takes or what he had for breakfast! It never happened. Somewhere between me fixing my wedgie and smiling at a camera man, he disappeared.

Mile three- There is no one ahead of me and no one behind me. 

The struggle was getting real.  At this point, I’m wondering,“what in the heck was I thinking?” I am now feeling the sting of a blister forming on my heel. “Am I last?” I was beginning to doubt myself again. I wasn’t sure I was gonna make it. 
Suddenly in the distance I could see the building where I started. This gave me hope. I kept on mostly running with walking breaks every now and again. 

(Yes, I had to snap a photo of my view. I mean, you have to know that if a blogger goes running three miles, they have to take a photo. I didn’t stop so it was all good since I skipped stopping at the water table).

I see the finish line- This was like the gates of heaven opening up and letting me in. I saw my husband and the friend that left me behind. I started to feel emotional that I was actually going to finish this! I wanted to cry. But there is no crying in running. That last little stretch to the finish line gave me a rush of energy as I pushed myself to cross through. I felt so proud of myself! Really! I never feel like a winner but this day I did. 

For the record: I was not last. I was somewhere in the middle. I finished in 38:33 minutes which I don’t think thats too bad being the first time ever trying to run. Will I ever do it again? I’m not sure. Ask me again after I get over the soreness.