On My Mind

Hope everyone is enjoying April so far and the beautiful weather it's brought with it. We saw snow on Tuesday and it was 74 degrees on Wednesday. That's what we have to deal with here this time of year.

I have loofah plants started that are itching to get out in the yard. I can not plant them until the threat of frost is gone. I had read where it takes them a while to sprout so I actually started some in February. They were 2 inches tall in 6 weeks! Afraid they will die sitting in little planter cups, I started a few more seeds the first of March. They are all doing good. I have already thinned them out to only 6 plants. The first ones I started are as high as the window and are trying every way they can to get their little twigs through the cracks. “Sorry guys but those are insulated windows”. 

I plan to get a trellis and plant them sometime in the next two weeks. 

I have a bit of bloggers block so I have been slow at writing any new post lately. I think its because I actually have a lot on my mind right now. I get overwhelmed really easy. I’m trying to learn not too.

We had two friends loose their wives last week. One lost her battle to cancer and one lost her battle with dementia. Both only in their 60’s and both very sweet ladies. I did not know the ladies as much as I knew their husbands as they were more friends of my Husband. Any friend of his is a friend of mine. 

I have written a crochet pattern I am anxious to try. It’s for wash clothes. If they turn out as I expect, they will not be ordinary and quiet funny. I can't wait to see and share the results. 

Then here comes the overwhelming part, It's been on my mind all week on top of other things.

I have a video interview with Nutrisystem this afternoon. It’s to answer a few questions and share my weight loss story. I do not know what it is about me, I can talk to a stranger like I have known them forever. I can act a part if I am told what to say, and I can pose for a photo, but if you put me in front of a camera to speak my own words, I freeze up. I am not a good speaker. I draw a blank. You can put a camera in my face and ask me where I live and I'd forget what to say. Seriously! Then I see others doing so well with speaking from their minds in front of a camera and I get intimidated. I beat myself up over these things. I need to just chill and go with the flow. I think that I "over think" and that's where I mess up.

I have a phobia of public speaking.
I need to just breathe in and breathe out, relax and go for it.
I love sharing my success with everyone and I think the more I do this, the better I will get at it.
Wish me luck..My daddy says I'm just as good as the rest of them. 

I Think I'm weird

As I get older, the more the thought of germs bother me. After doing a lot of shopping and food swapping the past couple days It's made me more concerned that I may have a problem. Some may think I'm a little weird and they may be right but I think we all have some weird ways about us that others can't seem to understand.

I think I may be a germaphobic.

Here are a few examples:

• I do not like to sit on fabric chairs in a waiting area or movie theater. 
• We want even talk about hotel beds.
• In a restaurant, I will not touch the edge of the table or chairs where my fingers may touch underneath. 
• Speaking of restaurants, I cringe when they wipe the seats and table with the same cloth.
• I will not eat any foods at a pot luck or covered dish dinner unless I know who's kitchen it came from. 
• I do not want to eat food from someone with cats. yea, I have had cats and I know how they shed and jump on counters. I know I'd wipe it clean but I don't know about others.
• If I see you messing with your hair in the kitchen, I will loose my appetite.
• I keep hand sanitizer with me all the time in case someone shakes my hand. I'd rather be hugged.
• I cringe when someone lets their dog kiss their face. Dogs lick themselves. eeeesh!
• I use a shower house when I go camping, but freak out if I touch the wall! and Flip flops will be worn at all times in there. 

• I will not eat foods that look like they were handled a lot in preparation, such as decorative cookies or desserts with lots of creativeness put in them. 
• I will not try on a hat in a store.
• I can't wait to get home and wash my feet after trying on shoes and I will no try shoes on barefooted. 
• Don't ask me if you can try my shoes on. It bothers me.
• I will eat at a buffet but I constantly think about who's touching what. 
• I have to wash my hands after I make my plate because of the germs on all those spoon handles everyone shares. 
• I will pull and push public doors open with my elbows or sleeves if at all possible. 

• I always wash my grocery buggy down with wipes then head to the produce for a plastic bag to cover the buggy handle. 
• and if you as much as hiccup around me during flu season, I might mace you with Lysol.

Well? Am I normal? or am I weird? I do not go into panics and I hid my concerns when I am out with friends and family but the concern is still there. It may not be really a Phobia. It's just a figure of speech. 

The only time I do not feel the phobia is around my husband or daughter. I have a strong stomach as a caring mother and wife and can handle any of their sicknesses accidents or boo boos like a boss!