Falling up

I do not usually fall up the stairs, but when I do, I make sure I do it over and over when there are several people behind me. 
Yes this happened to me last week. I still can’t stop thinking about the embarrassment. So here I am writing about it to get it off my mind. Maybe.

Where I work, I have to park a great distance to and from the entrance. The walk includes climbing 33 steps midway. I was pretty much alone on the route but other employees were coming up the parking lot. Half way up the stairs my foot did not go all the way on a step and it cause me to trip. Up the stairs. I caught myself with one hand while I kept from spilling my coffee that was in the other. 
I was rather embarrassed but it was a graceful fall and didn’t cause any alarm. So I kept climbing. 

Once I reached the door, the others behind me had caught up with me. I began wondering how many saw me fall. So. Out of embarrassment, I decided to take the stairs instead of the elevator to my 4th floor office just to prove I was ok and wasn’t that old. I thought I would be spunky and even run up them. So I did. Well, I tried. 
Many of the other employees that were still behind me, take the stairs too because they work on the 2nd floor. 
As I was running up the stairs, I tripped again. Everyone gasped and I assured them I was ok and continued up. Again….I tripped. That made three falls before even getting to the 2nd floor. 

At that point, I turned around and said “ Oh my gosh yall! I promise I am not drunk!” They all giggled a little and wished me well as they went to their floor and I continue on up to the fourth floor without any more incidents. 

I still do not know why I kept falling but now I wonder if I should just take the elevator for now on. I really do like getting the exercise of the stairs but I’m still too embarrassed and do not want to take any more chances embarrassing myself even more. 

My knees are not as good as they used to be. Neither are my ankles. That could have contributed to the falls. Who knows. Maybe I am just getting old. 


What do you do when you don’t change churches but the church changes on you? 
I have so many mixed feeling right now. I am searching for direction and understanding. I’ve cried and I’ve prayed.

My church that I have attended for 52+years voted this past weekend to change the name and drop the Baptist label. There are many non denominal churches out there. I see nothing wrong with it. I think it’s great that people can go to church where they are not labeled. But I also think its nice that there are still churches that are Baptist, Presbyterian, Methodist, Pentecostal, etc.. I have always believed that as long as they worship God, they are good. But if I wanted to go to one of those churches I would. I have chosen all these years to stay a Baptist. It’s my style. It’s how I was brought up. 
Do I stay? Or do I go find a Baptist church to attend? That’s were I stand right now. 

I can’t say I didn’t see this coming as my church has changed through the past few years. It has not changed in a bad way, it has just gradually stepped away from the ole Southern Baptist style. I have hung in there all these years through the good and bad times. I have seen us struggle to find pastors and keep attendance. I have seen members pulled in and members kicked out. Right now, I think me and my mom and dad are the only original members left. 
There has been a lot of drama and politics, but I think you have that in all churches. There is no perfect church or person.

Everything is changing to please the world. I had the comfort knowing that my church that will stay the same. But now they too are changing to please world. They believe that changing the sign in the front to a new name will bring in new people. I don’t think so and I hope I’m wrong on that. It’s the people in the church that bring in new people. 

I’m not saying what my church did is right or wrong but I do think they should have sent out letters to other members that were not at church the week before to let them know there would be a vote on this change. A lot of member are shocked and confused right now. I think it was a big decision that should have been made by more than a few people. 

I will probably continue to attend until I make up my mind what I want to do. 

Am I wrong for thinking this way? Should I accept the change or move on? Thanks for the comments. I’m interested in your thoughts on this.